Moments

Every living beings are having the 'moments' of their life
Then here I am
I should only look up to the sky (waiting for my death)
Or look down (forced to be satisfied and content)
Shouldn't look straight (to avoid comparing myself with other people, or being extremely sad, or might be even being little jealous or prevent going astray, or to prevent despair or hopelessness)
It is not about wanting it
It is about feeling incomplete without it
I wonder,
Does anybody know the pain of my pain?